'This is the place of my song-dream, the place the music
played to me,' whispered the Rat, as if in a trance. 'Here, in this holy place,
here if anywhere, surely we shall find Him!'
Then suddenly the Mole felt a great Awe fall upon him, an
awe that turned his muscles to water, bowed his head, and rooted his feet to
the ground. It was no panic terror— indeed he felt wonderfully at peace and
happy— but it was an awe that smote and held him and, without seeing, he knew
it could only mean that some august Presence was very, very near. With
difficulty he turned to look for his friend. and saw him at his side cowed,
stricken, and trembling violently. And still there was utter silence in the populous
bird-haunted branches around them; and still the light grew and grew.
Perhaps he would never have dared to raise his eyes, but
that, though the piping was now hushed, the call and the summons seemed still
dominant and imperious. He might not refuse, were Death himself waiting to
strike him instantly, once he had looked with mortal eye on things rightly kept
hidden. Trembling he obeyed, and raised his humble head; and then, in that
utter clearness of the imminent dawn, while Nature, flushed with fulness of
incredible colour, seemed to hold her breath for the event, he looked in the
very eyes of the Friend and Helper; saw the backward sweep of the curved horns,
gleaming in the growing daylight; saw the stern, hooked nose between the kindly
eyes that were looking down on them humourously, while the bearded mouth broke
into a half-smile at the corners; saw the rippling muscles on the arm that lay
across the broad chest, the long supple hand still holding the pan-pipes only
just fallen away from the parted lips; saw the splendid curves of the shaggy
limbs disposed in majestic ease on the sward; saw, last of all, nestling
between his very hooves, sleeping soundly in entire peace and contentment, the
little, round, podgy, childish form of the baby otter. All this he saw, for one
moment breathless and intense, vivid on the morning sky; and still, as he
looked, he lived; and still, as he lived, he wondered.
'Rat!' he found breath to whisper, shaking. 'Are you
afraid?'
'Afraid?' murmured the Rat, his eyes shining with
unutterable love. 'Afraid! Of Him? O, never, never! And yet— and yet— O,
Mole, I am afraid!'
Then the two animals, crouching to the earth, bowed their
heads and did worship.
Sudden and magnificent, the sun's broad golden disc showed
itself over the horizon facing them; and the first rays, shooting across the
level water-meadows, took the animals full in the eyes and dazzled them. When
they were able to look once more, the Vision had vanished, and the air was full
of the carol of birds that hailed the dawn.
As they stared blankly. in dumb misery deepening as they
slowly realised all they had seen and all they had lost, a capricious little
breeze, dancing up from the surface of the water, tossed the aspens, shook the
dewy roses and blew lightly and caressingly in their faces; and with its soft
touch came instant oblivion. For this is the last best gift that the kindly
demi- god is careful to bestow on those to whom he has revealed himself in
their helping: the gift of forgetfulness. Lest the awful remembrance should
remain and grow, and overshadow mirth and pleasure, and the great haunting
memory should spoil all the after-lives of little animals helped out of
difficulties, in order that they should be happy and lighthearted as before.
Kenneth Grahame, from Wind in the Willows
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