Smoldering.

Cotton, The Gametrail, undated 

Solstice Litany

1

The Saturday morning meadowlark
came in from the high up
with her song gliding into tall grass
still singing.  How I'd like 
to glide around singing in the summer
then to go south where I already was
and find fields full of meadowlarks
in winter.  But when walking my dog
I want four legs to keep up with her
as she thunders down the hill at top speed
then belly flops into the deep pond.
Lark or dog I crave the impossible.
I'm just human.  All too human.

2

I was nineteen and mentally
infirm when I saw the prophet Isaiah.
The hem of his robe was as wide 
as the horizon and his trunk and face
were thousands of feet up in the air.
Maybe he appeared because I had read him
so much and opened many ancient doors.
I was cooking my life in a cracked clay
pot that was leaking.  I had found
secrets that I didn't deserve to know.
When the battle for the mind is finally
over it's late June, green and raining.

3

A violent windstorm the night before
the solstice.  The house creaked and yawned. 
I thought the morning might bring a bald earth,
bald as a man's bald head but not shiny.
But dawn was fine with a few downed trees,
the yellow rosebush splendidly intact.
The grass was all there dotted with Black
Angus cattle.  The grass is indestructible
except to fire but now it's too green to burn.
What did the cattle do in the storm?
They stood with their butts toward the wind,
erect Buddhists waiting for nothing in particular.
I was in bed cringing at gusts,
imagining the contents of earth all blowing
north and piled up where the wind stopped,
the pile sky high.  No one can climb it.
A gopher climbs out of a hole as if nothing happened.

4

The sun should be a couple of million miles
closer today.  It wouldn't hurt anything 
and anyway this cold rainy June is hard 
on me and the nesting birds.  My own nest
is stupidly uncomfortable, the chair
of many years.  The old windows don't keep 
the weather out, the wet wind whipping
my hair.  A very old robin drops dead
on the lawn, a first for me.  Millions
of birds die but we never see it -- they like
privacy in this holy, fatal moment or so 
I think. We can't tell each other when we die.
Others must carry the message to and fro.
"He's gone," they'll say.  While writing an average poem
destined to disappear among millions of poems
written now by mortally average poets.

5

Solstice at the cabin in the forest.
The full moon shines on the river, there are pale
green northern lights.  A huge thunderstorm
comes slowly from the west.  Lightning strikes
a nearby tamarack bursting into flame.
I go into the cabin feeling unworthy.
At dawn the tree is still smoldering 
in this place the gods touched earth.

Jim Harrison