Forever.

Chinnery, Untitled, Undated

And every day these twinges of pain in my heart, that muscle
         unenvisionable,
Draining me downward like the ‘flow of atoms’ into cool organic
         earth,
The quicksand,
Downward in this strange new fluidity, this impersonal dissolution,
Drawn by an energy somehow inside me and yet not mine—
How stunning the methodical magnitudes of force!—
Make me wonder, somewhat abstractedly, about the pulverization
         of the soul,
About vast windy wastes of crumbled joys and drifting knowledge,
         about what becomes
Of all the disjuncted dregs of consciousness:
This song is a wave forever rolling among

         the stars.

Hayden Carruth