Freedom.
I was born free, and that I might live in freedom I chose
the solitude of the fields; in the trees of the mountains I find society, the
clear waters of the brooks are my mirrors, and to the trees and waters I make
known my thoughts and charms. I am a fire afar off, a sword laid aside. Those
whom I have inspired with love by letting them see me, I have by words
undeceived, and if their longings live on hope—and I have given none to
Chrysostom or to any other—it cannot justly be said that the death of any is my
doing, for it was rather his own obstinacy than my cruelty that killed him; and
if it be made a charge against me that his wishes were honourable, and that
therefore I was bound to yield to them, I answer that when on this very spot
where now his grave is made he declared to me his purity of purpose, I told him
that mine was to live in perpetual solitude, and that the earth alone should
enjoy the fruits of my retirement and the spoils of my beauty; and if, after
this open avowal, he chose to persist against hope and steer against the wind,
what wonder is it that he should sink in the depths of his infatuation? If I
had encouraged him, I should be false; if I had gratified him, I should have
acted against my own better resolution and purpose. He was persistent in spite
of warning, he despaired without being hated. Bethink you now if it be
reasonable that his suffering should be laid to my charge. Let him who has been
deceived complain, let him give way to despair whose encouraged hopes have
proved vain, let him flatter himself whom I shall entice, let him boast whom I
shall receive; but let not him call me cruel or homicide to whom I make no
promise, upon whom I practise no deception, whom I neither entice nor receive.
It has not been so far the will of Heaven that I should love by fate, and to
expect me to love by choice is idle. Let this general declaration serve for
each of my suitors on his own account, and let it be understood from this time
forth that if anyone dies for me it is not of jealousy or misery he dies, for
she who loves no one can give no cause for jealousy to any, and candour is not
to be confounded with scorn. Let him who calls me wild beast and basilisk,
leave me alone as something noxious and evil; let him who calls me ungrateful,
withhold his service; who calls me wayward, seek not my acquaintance; who calls
me cruel, pursue me not; for this wild beast, this basilisk, this ungrateful,
cruel, wayward being has no kind of desire to seek, serve, know, or follow
them. If Chrysostom's impatience and violent passion killed him, why should my
modest behaviour and circumspection be blamed? If I preserve my purity in the
society of the trees, why should he who would have me preserve it among men,
seek to rob me of it? I have, as you know, wealth of my own, and I covet not
that of others; my taste is for freedom, and I have no relish for constraint; I
neither love nor hate anyone; I do not deceive this one or court that, or
trifle with one or play with another. The modest converse of the shepherd girls
of these hamlets and the care of my goats are my recreations; my desires are
bounded by these mountains, and if they ever wander hence it is to contemplate
the beauty of the heavens, steps by which the soul travels to its primeval abode.
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